I'm in college... no money, the end.

Well...I hate being poor...having no money to do much of anything sans paying bills is really starting to get to my family and myself.

It would appear to me that no matter how much we work, how much we get paid, we still don't have enough to do anything but buy gas to get to and from work, and eat after paying the bills.

My beloved luxury items aren't being consumed and I desire them, I desire them so much.

oops, meant to add...at least it's getting better somewhat, I'm not spending $200 for gas every other week.

High school sucks to many projects I think i'm drowning in projects idiot friends idiot ppl piss me off the worlds problems and so on.

All of my money is going to fixing my car. Brakes need replacing ($60-80), frontpipe is busted ($100-200), and I need a tire rotation and fluids ($20-30).

I have a five page paper due tomorrow that I didn't start because I ended up watching all 12 hours of SingSterling ;_; That's kind of my fault though.

LittleBigPlanet release date got pushed back... the week just got longer

I saved over the wrong slot in Ar Tonelico. Not bad because it was the furthest save in the game, but I'll miss at least 1 of multiple endings. Also brought the Teknoman DVD collection, but found out it's dub only and highly edited! Throwing that sucker back! >_<

And lastly, there were zero comments and after creating an account, there's suddenly comments! XD

So okay here goes...

Late august my dad gets a quadruple bypass heart surgery, leaving me the only person in my house who can actually drive. Also with the added pressure with taking care of my lil brother and helping him with school. All this happening at the same time while Im taking Anatomy and Physiology class which I need to get an A on in order for me to not waste my entire semester.

September rolls in and my entire area loses power for about 8 days with added pressure with a post-op family member, I drive around the city in search of a generator and kept running into price-gouging idiots and crazy effers which I almost got into a fight with.

We get power back eventually but the next day I get my first Unit Exam which I fail because the previous day some girl backed into my car and denting my 2 month-old new car. The following days the website I ordered Gia's replacement Gurren Lagann suddenly gets lost in the mail and I had to call some call center to get my money back and I get disrespected by the call agent just cause we happen to be from the same country.

Then October starts off, I was readying up the tribute videos for Dtoid and out of nowhere my video camera stops working and Im still trying to get a good replacement within my price range (coughImUnemployedcough). This added with my laptop mysteriously crashing every couple of days.

But I did get to hang out with some friends last night which was pretty awesome.

got into an accident with my sister's car, got a low test grade which forced me to quit my job of only a month and a half, found out the girl i had feelings for has been making out with a guy she met the same night she met me, and i became a confidant for my other friends, so their mental burdens are put on top of my own. all this happened just this last week and i sincerely wish i made these things up T_T

My current account currently stands at -£999 because my student loan has failed to materialise, I have 3 massive pieces of work due in for next week, and while I do have my PS3 with me (I am at university away from home), I lack any sort of monitor or TV to play it on. I'm just sitting here, staring at it.

Having a great day otherwise, though. :)

A close relative of mine is in the hospital for almost a month, and I've been visiting each day since, on top of that my great-aunt of 84 y.o. has a leg injury and have to take her to the nearest health centre every other day for a nurse to treat the injury.I also don't have a job.

I've been watching Azumanga Daioh, Lucky Star and School Rumble every day to keep my mood up.

hemorrhoid

I'm sick and Mother 3 is taunting me while I Earthbound, which kicking my ass all over the place.

Also, my girlfriend is heading back to her hour-and-a-half away college after visiting for the weekend and we didn't really get to enjoy the time that much cause we're both sick. And goodbyes are really hard. T_T

my fiance just got the cold feet and left me. We were together for 2 years and know she just left me. I havent ate for 3 days now in sadness and watching "Rosario Vampire Capu" and "Soul Eater" trying to cheer me up.


im not making this up, im really going thru some hard times!

LIFE IS JUST A MEANINGLESS SHUFFLE FROM BIRTH TO FAKE HAPPINESS TO DEATH WHERE OUR FALSE GODS SHOW NO SUPPORT BECAUSE WE ARE JUST NUMBERED LIKE CATTLE AND TREATED MUCH TEH SAME

I've been playing a beta of a MMO and like every sort of glitch has been occurring so far in that beta ><

I completely suck at hello kitty online. I have failed hello kitty.

My Gamecube 1019 Memory Card just randomly decided to corrupt itself, releasing all the game saves of my entire 60+ game collection into oblivion. That's like over 5 years of my entire gaming life down the drain ;_;

Other than that, I'm also doing pretty terrible in my senior year of high school >_> Though I'm pretty sure I can improve.

Hmm, not sure opening up would be a good idea.
Things are really difficult, and all I can think about is giving up. But it would kill my parents if I did, and I can't do that to them, no matter how much I want it all to stop.
So I (we) fight on, distracting ourselves from the truth as much as we can.

Ho wow, I was gonna post about how it sucks listening to people bitch to me over the phone at the power company (Thankfully not Redzie's provider). But compared to what others have post, I have nothing to say. Give the manga to someone else

I dunno how to meet with this girl I like because I can't drive.

Kagamin~ MAI WAIFU!!!!!!!!

I... I...

...

OK yeah I gotta agree with Teradoc, give the manga to someone else who needs it more, I withdraw my bid >_>;

I also follow the "in college, no money" category. I have a scholarship application due Monday, a magazine article for class due Tuesday, a literary analysis paper on I have no idea due Thursday, my college anime club to help run which is having two meetings and a party this week and I have to figure out when I can make it back home to vote and grab my jacket. It's starting to get colder here.

My nanna recently went into hospital with a heart attack so im pretty worried about her. Apart from that, the trials and tribulations of unemployment in the UK is taking its toll, what with the economic crisis making the highest unemployment since the early nineties, thus making a job even harder to find. The conundrum is, having failed one of my units for uni Ive got to resit that this year, which means if I do get a job its going to be a bitch to get my unit done on top of that. Also having no job means my funds have rapidly depleted, leaving me with no money for manga or much of anything else. Also its becoming evident that I need a girlfriend as Im getting to the phase when im envying my friends and their relationships. STOP SMOOCHING IN FRONT OF ME DAMMIT.

I've been sick for over 2 years, not deathly sick (yet..gets worse every now and then ), but because of it i can't work, no money=no life

I'm a college student too, kind of lacking money, have midterms coming up, a little behind on homework that's due this week, and sad that the LittleBigPlanet release date got pushed back too :(

My dog recently had a stroke, we're gonna have to move out of our house by the end of the month, my sister's had to go to a mental ward, I've had three essay papers to write in the last week, my copy of Suikoden II got scratched up by a friend, my copy of Slam Dunk vol. 1 god water damage, and I have yet to finish Kaiba.

Besides all that, I'll just be honest: I want free manga.

Monday i recieved back a test from AP government, FAIL.
Tuesday i got yelled at for not coming home 20 minutes earlier.
Wednesday, i lost my FAVORITE two handed sword in Mabinogi in a bet.
Friday, i lost my job at geek squad. (for installing & playing mabinogi at work. -_-) My girlfriend left me later that night too. and for another guy who "isn't as nerdy as you"
last night i got grounded for having a C in one of my classes. (AP government, none the less.)
got my computers taken away, but i still have my psp. ill be able to surf the net on it.
but no more mabinogi. T_T

i need some haruhi reading material for my lonely time. xD

I only have many trivial miseries.

I went to a cheap and cheerful gig last night, and now my limbs don't work.

Dark Aeons are making me their bitch, barring me from 2 important items.

I've realised I'm unable to finish the post-game of any RPG after and including FF VII

My coat smells of ugly-girl-BO

I have neither of the books you're giving away.

first off i am in highschool, and taking advance classes that give homework and projects every day pretty much. The thing is i don't have time to do with marching band. Which practice is monday, tuesday, and thursday, 5:20 to 9:00. Then games on Friday 5:20 to 11:00. Then compotitions or all day practices from 8:00 to 8:00 or 8:00 to 2:00 in the morning. Also i have trouble with girls.
SO PLEASE GIVE SOME MANGA.

My basement is being redone so everything and everyone is clustered upstairs.

I am making less money at work because I am back at school.

School, car, transportation and food cost more than what I can get at work..

Also, Canada is cold, and most of my pants are locked in a container while my basement is being done..
IDK why I decided to keep 4 pairs of shorts out and only 2 pairs of pants..

effed up my midterms, first year freshman in college
*sigh*

I also forgot to say, both my parents are diagnoesed with cancer, and my brother just ran away, and we can't find him.

My parents are going through this *really* nasty divorce, to the point where there's now a restraining order against my dad. So it's been up to me and mum to catigorize all of the undisputed items in the household and move them out for him. And then the man changes his mind and decides he dosn't want to pick his stuff up today, after we've gone through all the arrangements.

Because of said divorce, I'm also the unofficial councilor for my mum. NOT AMUSED IN THE LEAST BIT. I've grown to not care about ANYBODY'S emotions at this point.

Then there's school stuff- I'm a college senior and doing clinicals, so I've had more homework this semester than my entire college career combined. SO much practising (music therapy major. Lots of instruments) and studying and trying to keep up with classes.

My new car also has a leaky transmission, and I have neither the time nor money to go fix that.

And on top of everything, my hockey team started the season 0-3 and my football team has lost their last 3 games.

I've been having a lot problems these months , i have been broke for a month now walking from school back and over 5 miles, grades look really bad because of all the stress and little time i have. I wake up very late everyday so am mostly late to school, teachers are picking on me for no reason, projects are almost every two weeks and there's always tests, i doze of in some classes when i wake up oh a big F on my test -_-, lunch is bad especially when people who have to buy it ask you for food cause i am a nice guy i manage to give them half, being cracked on is no fun, i've been stuck in my house for a month, i sleep right when i come from school waking up at 8:00pm and going back to sleep at 12:00pm because my body just falls asleep at that time, i need to read two books and do a project for each of them in each quarter, school library doesn't have manga and most public library have about 5 books and there all scattered everywhere, holloween is a no go because i have no costume, and i was acused of stealing because my friend tought it was a funny joke, I can't go to a program of art because its way two far and because bus passes can be used only ten times thats alot of money, and a japanese language program might not be starting because some people don't want to join, field trips to field of screams and factory of terror cost 15 dollars, and i'm trying to save up to buy some games, I trying to find a job no luck yet, this year is gonna be awful for me the only thing holding me up is the wish to move to japan one day it looks very slim right now.


basically my life is a living hell and i don't think it will stop anytime soon, all i want is some luck in my life thank you for listening to my problems.....

I had to give up 2/3's of my financial aid just so we could make rent this month, along with having to watch my father, who returned after so many months homeless, being turned away.

I recently got my Xbox 360 back from repair and when I booted up Castle Crashers and all the saves erased themselves because of a bug.

I'm in LA.

Dear Kagamin, my friend, an 18 year-old male, reads the Twilight series of novels. I'm very worried about him...

OK so I put my Oreos in the freezer cuz it's more epic that way right, and when I try to twist them apart sometimes they break on me and them I'm all like awww shit wtf now, and it's just to good not to keep trying.

My father is fighting a losing battle with melanoma, I have an apartment next to a schizophrenic shut-in who is so loud I can't stay there at night (Arguing with leaser is no help; his problem gives him a full pass to be as loud as he likes) now I am commuting to school 5 days a week, and I can't seem to figure out why this program I wrote for CS class isn't working!

P.S - My Pokemon aren't bringing all the boys to the yard.

I never owned anything that was related to Japan.

That, and my grandfather is very sick in the hospital.

my family has been assassinated

So, I was living with my brother deep in the boonies, when one day he decided we were gonna move to the big leagues, things went great from then, we had alot of fun, met this awesome chick, and arrived in the big city with bright eyes and bright ambitions, but then that's when it happened, the big city is filled with people who don't like our kind, even to the point of chasing us around in their fancy hoity toity vehicles! Anyway, I managed to find a small vehicle before we left, and we got around with help from the chick's friends, but next thing I knew, my bro was stealing one of the big guy's cars!

I thought he was just borrowing it, but no, he stole it, added some decals, a fresh coat of paint, and now it's his! Anyway, from there we strove to change the world, and make a place for people like us to live in the big city, at least, that was the goal. Last night, my bro passed away in a shoot out with some other people over us trying to steal their mobile home. We got the mobile home, but was it really worth it? Bro was everything to me, and now I just feel empty.

...Oh, and I found some girl in a box and now she won't leave me alone.

Running out of money -_-

I'm sweating a project proposal due Thursday.

Dear Kagamin,

I've had almost week-long jetlag and a massive headache. I know I'm not eligible for the free manga because i work here, but I just wanted you to know and feel sorry for me.

- My girlfriend dumped me after confessing she loved my best friend.
- I've started balding. Both at the hairline and little patches on my legs.
- Last Tuesday, my parents told me I was adopted.
- I found out that I'm allergic to mangos.
- I think I may have a secret admirer...who's a homosexual.
- I ran out of floss this morning.

P.S. My username sucks.

i have a midterm paper due in a week, and i havent even chose a topic yet...

I've been unemployed for the past 10 months and was forced to move back in with my parents.

School leaves me with no time to watch anime.

Dear Kagamin,

You've always suppressed your tsundere side, but once in a while you should just let it out for the hell of it. My life's great and so is your's, and we both like to sometimes just let our wild side go just like Revi of Black Lagoon. Not for any particular reason, but just to blow some shit up and let some steam off. It cleanses the soul.

college = no money for my greatest passion, manga

plus i have an essay due tomorrow and my first draft was completely wrong and i have to start from scratch. im new at this university so i dont know anyone here, and all my fri/sat nights are spent huddled in front of the computer hoping the connection doesnt give out in the middle of the last episode of Code Geass

My main problem is one leading towards success, but causing me much anguish in the process. I am currently going through the M.A. in Teaching at my college, and it's driving me into the ground. The first problem is that the only way I can attend school is to work a graveyard shift job 5 nights a week. It's not so bad in and of itself, but school hours, during which I have to do service hours, observation hours, and tutoring all take place from 7 am- 2 pm: my sleep time. Also, on 3 days of the week, I am stuck on my college campus for at least 9 hours for classes, leaving me heavily under rested, and dead-as-a-doornail. This leaves me with a very agitated girlfriend and cat, both of whom vie for my attention during the hours I should be sleeping, resulting in much less sleep. On top of that, my lack of sleep, crazy course-load, and girlfriend time leave me with very little A) Money and B) time. Where does anime/manga/videogames/ fit in? No where. I beg you Japanator, help me, PLEASE GOD HELP ME!

P.S. Also, there is a small chance that my job will stop paying for my Graduate Tuition. If this happens, bye school, as I can't afford it otherwise. 5 years, wasted.

I'm spending X amount of time sitting here actually reading all the depressing emo comments that Brad has summoned forth.

Also /highfive to Kageryu

(I'll bleed out on to the page a bit later >_>)

I really need something to give my little retarded brother. He can't stop crying while he comforts a broken eggshell promising they'll play together once it gets all better.

My only problem is a lack of money. :(

College stuff. SAT Subject U.S. History, college apps, that whole stuff =/

Ninjas kidnapped my family, and my jeep needs a new transmission, I dropped out of college. Currently I'm working on learning Ninjutsu, but last night I had to play D&D and my Fighter/Mage died. So now I have to role up a new character, finish learning ninjutsu and then go on a quest to locate my family because I have no money to pay for anything.

Then I found out this chick I thought was my girlfriend (first ever) was just using me for sex and likes to regularly get plowed by groups of strange men for no reason at all.

Luckily I'm learning ninjutsu.

Our dog decided he didn't want to live with me as I have yet to return our family and threw himself in front of an Ice Cream Truck. And our fish all jumped out of the tank, leaving me a note that simply says "You Sux K?"

And to top it all off, my friend Ryan stepped on my SlayStation Portable, completely destroying my 4 MILLION HOUR save data!

I've been sick since last week & missed a whole week of school last week & I've still been a bit sick (puked at church) & I've hardly had time to play Tales of Symphonia.

& I wish I had more money so I could get a PSP & some more manga. I applied for a job, but who knows when I'll get a response....

Im in high school, I have two "high quality" pieces due this week & i havent even started. He drives me crazy. So many deadlines. WHY MUST MY ART BE RUSHED?! DX but yea thanks for listening

This Just In: The cats slashed my tires, the couch, the chairs, the last box of cheerios, my Cloud and Vincent action figures, Xenogears, Suikoden 1 and 2, and my face while I was sleeping and then left me too....*sniff*

Ive been eating alot of ice cream lately and i think im getting sick.. My art teacher makes me feel like a failure. & my ramen always comes out nasty... :/

I just discovered my power to talk to fish this week, but lo and behold, they all give me the cold shoulder. Don't get me started on dolphins, elitist pricks. Also, a science ninja team destroyed my giant killer turtle. What a bummer of a week.

Also, i read my manga to fast :/ and barnes and noble never has the vol. i need & when i order them I tell them to call my house when they recieve it & they are like "yea sure" & im like "good" & i wait & wait and no call. SOooo i call them and am like uhh is my manga in er what?? & theyr like yea. & im like WTF >XO

Waldens books my 2nd choice for manga as closed down and im sad. ):

My lovely roommate decided to dump her man of 4 years for another one. So thus, there's been either tears or touching in the middle of the night. Unluckily for me, I'm up till the wee hours of the morning and I have to hear both. Midterms are this week, I've began to sacrifice eating to buy cigarettes as I'm running out of money, it's fucking cold all the time, and the sun is always in my eyes when I'm on the laptop in the afternoon.

On the bright side, I did watch Gunbuster and it made life worth living.

wow everyone story so long so I keep my short.
broke my leg
making be push back in college
and bro took half of our collection.
And not just broke but in the hole. noooooo....

i had to buy 4 brand new tires for my car...blah

I have an essay due tomorrow and I have no idea what the topic is.

My DS's R button is broken so I can't play half my games. The touch screen is also broken so the other half is unplayable as well.

I got 2 books out of the Library and both were missing a page.

My MP3 player got corrupted and I had to format it; lost 8 gigs of music.

There are ants in my couch and I don't know why they're there.

There are deers in my yard and I don't know why they're there.

Used items are more broken then they appear.

Retailers should not hide their "no refunds" signs.

I could think of more things, but I'd rather not. Besides, it's all small potatoes compared to what everyone else is saying.

March-Dad get a DUI at work, loses job
April-Dad goes to jail for a week
May- Dad has to take care of HORRIBLE grandmother and grandma never once says thank you all the while dealing with his own problems
July-Dad commits suicide, mom blames herself
August- Mom still blaming herself
September-Junior year of college starts with upper division classes galore, mom still blaming herself
October- Develop nervous eye twitch from lack of sleep and stress and mom still blaming herself.

And the sad part is im so swamped by school i havent been able to see a councilor yet. Its eating me up on the inside.

I was having a grand old time with the game Mega Man 9. I had beaten Splash Woman, Galaxy Man, Concrete Man, and Jewel Man. The last boss alone took me 5 COMBINED hours. My friend comes over, and I say "Hey! Let's play some Mega Man 9!" We proceed to start, and when I die, I go and save.

You can guess by now what happened.

Out of habit, I click the "SAVE 1" slot. Over all my 12+ hours of progress.

I am seriously considering suicide.

Sounds like a fun contest... I won't consider this an emo rant, but an actual list of stuff that's been going so wrong I'm starting to find it darkly humorous...

Okay, so first I get my job (which I LOVE) taken from me because I make too much money, the guy who replaces me has the same name as my jerk of a biological father.

I was in the hospital two weeks before school started because they thought I had cancer. Two days after my birthday, my grandmother, who I had been taking care of for the past seven years, dies. My birthday itself was spent in Hooters with my gay cousin and my younger brother.

I had to get rid of two of my cats, and I had to be the one to go and do it, after I watched them give birth to their kittens. A little while after this, I receive a $141 ticket for accidentally running a stop sign.

My best friend's grandfather died last week, so I've been doing my best to console them. My washer's broken, so I either have to hand wash my clothes or travel to the creepiest landromat on the face of the Earth. It's Silent Hill creepy.

..Whew... Okay, there you go. : )

I keep accidentally hitting the record button on my tape player when trying to listen back to an interview I did, screwing up some quotes I wanted.

I failed an exam that if i didn't pass i would have to repeat a year. Lucky my teacher is planning to give me a make up test on friday.. BUT i've been so busy with other work that i haven't had time to study properly... In the end.. look at what i'm doing instead of writing essays and memorizing the Coagulation cascade...

AND i'm sick.... when will this semester end!!!

ok...well yea...that almost felt better..

My lodger has found a buyer for his house, and they have to make a survey before finalising everything.

I've found a new place to lodge, I'm just hoping that nothing falls through, and leaves me in a 'was moving until buyer drops out in the final few weeks of moving out' situation.

Oh, my internet connection keeps dropping out during the evenings; I can't finish all my work on time, leading to one of my managers unfairly getting critisized; I got scared off reading Negima because I felt I was looking at inappropriate images of kids when I was just intending to read a fun manga; I can't seem to put down my ideas for a television series on paper because I don't seem to have the motivation (the same goes for my artwork...)...

Hell, my life is actually ok. How about you?

Uh, yeah, I'm really thirsty, but I can't quite reach the mountain dew in my refrigerator from my chair.

I'm in college... no money and lack of time to rest and play games:(

I just found out that my toilet won't work and I really need to take a shit. Time to go take a walk outside.

(grr..it ate it)



You guys think THAT'S bad!? I had to jettison a 783 million dollar reentry vehicle in the bottom of the ocean, then some stupid girl saw me as I tried to escape, so I had to beat up some guys and steal an ambulance to get away. And then the ambulance's radio went off with some call, and when i got there I found some girl standing next to a dead body with blood all over her and she wanted to go get something to eat. Later I found she has split personalities and she likes me. The problem is, it's the guy side personality that likes me. To make matters worse, we went on vacation together to some rural town out in the middle of nowhere, and it was all fine and dandy, until some guy we met on the first day refused to stop taking pictures of her in weird poses. It wasn't all bad since they invited me to their "FEE-AY-STAH" but ever since I got back I haven't been able to stop scratching my throat since it's been really REALLY itchy.

I have little money and time plus I am low on money.

Well, my car was totalled a few weeks ago when it was hit from behind by a Toyota golf cart, and knocked into an Accura in the oncoming lane. I just cashed the check to buy a new(er) Civic, but now I have car payments to worry about.

Photo of the accident: http://www.flickr.com/photos/49587656@N00/2926323623/

Kagamin, my friends hate each other and I'm stuck in the middle. D:
Basically my one friend, calling her Sam, hates my other friend, now called Serene, just because she chose to hang out with someone else. It's so ridiculous. This started in mid-September.
I've been trying to get the to talk to each other, but my friend Sam is so stubborn and self-centered. When I ask her about it or confront her, she simply says that why they fight doesn't matter anymore. Obviously, I ask her why she keeps a grudge then, and she simply brushes it off.
Last time I confronted her, yesterday, she became very defensive and she said she was sorry for being my friend, then "blocked" me on messenger. It seemed so juvenile. But a few hours later, she came on and said sorry to me. I knew she would, because no matter what, she always comes back to me. I don;t know why I've put up with this all these years. I love the girl, really, but boy can she really get on one's nerves.
Done my complaining now.
Oh man, I gotta study for my math test.

I want some popeyes chicken but the nearest one to me is about an hour away right now.

ha ha no money and no girl friend that should fine for this lol

I just messed up a great picture of Horo because of i tried to color it -_- eh.... back to step one

hmmm... lets see,
Shitty job, 40hrs a week
School full time,
6,000 in debt,
and not nearly enough manga to drown my tears in..

On the up side, I've started to feel a little better about my life after reading all these sad comments..

^ I agree. I hope that at least half the shit people write here is fake cause if it isn't, then that is truly sad stuff indeed.

I don't have enough self-esteem to compete with the sad stories posted above. And this makes me sad (and kind of sad for humanity too, I guess).

My fridge will not stop smelling like mold.

Bees coming into the bathroom while I am in the shower really sucks

my job won't allow me to sit down for eight hours. I can't read or find other ways of entertaining myself if it's slow. It stresses my kneecaps which makes me perform inadequately during my karate class.

Also..my kitty cries all night long. She's pissed that she's on a diet

My girlfriend left me...for a girl.

4 years ago my mother had a car accident and has been almost completely paralyzed since. My father has tried to kill me since I was 10. I basically have to do everything around the house every single day. I've never had a meaningful relationship and the way my life is panning out I doubt I ever will. Hell, the ONLY relationship I've ever had was pretty much a joke. My dog recently ran away and I found him run over a few blocks down the road. I spend my days either doing homework, going to class, or listening to a bunch of idiots rant pointlessly (looks at #japanator), obnoxiously even at that (looks at Kuro >_>). The only things that keep me going are video games and anime (which I barely have time for right now) and the possibilty that I might at some point find a girl (chances are .05%). And to top it off nothing good can possibly happen until this semester ends.

Also Heath Ledger died... wait.... nevermind...

I'll let you guys decide if any of this is true...

Some 21 years and 9 months ago a lot of people had sex. Now all those Australia-day concieved kiddies are having birthdays and all my money, Fridays and Saturdays are going towards a bunch of very similar parties. Also I'm too tired all weekend to get much work done, it's the end of semester and everything is due and my work ethic is offically dead.
I know I'm going to miss it next year though.

This counts as my entry for tomorrow. I can't hold it back any longer.

I recently entered high school, and I had a crush on a girl with insane titties, anyway, my friend who sat next to me with semi-big yet still medium sized titties decided to hook us up and at first it was great, we went on dates, to the pool, she even invited me out on her family’s yacht because they dig me so much, it’s actually quite the nice boat, but eventually I found out that medium titty girl had a crush on me, and what can I say, I’m a player, so I started banging her…her friend…her friend’s friends…and even her mom, eventually the insane titty girl found out, but she was chill with it and forgave me because at this point, I had forced my man chowder down the throats of so many anonymous women, it didn’t even really matter at this point. Medium titty girl however had other plans and now she’s all “I’m pregnant!” but I’m like “Bitch.” But she still won’t leave me alone; right now I’m brewing some tea before I finally tell her to go fuck herself and to drop the baby momma drama.

I hope this goes well.

…Oh, wait, I got a text message, brb gotta check this.

Might as well take a stab at this.

My biggest problems right now are

a) Staying up all night at work, and
b) Finding a way to no longer be so afraid of hiding your power level- which I have a phobia about.

Small problems, I know. I do consider myself lucky, I just hope I'm more lucky and win. ^_^

Might as well take a stab at this.

My biggest problems right now are

a) Staying up all night at work, and
b) Finding a way to no longer be so afraid of hiding your power level- which I have a phobia about.

Small problems, I know. I do consider myself lucky, I just hope I'm more lucky and win. ^_^

College is shit!
This girl who I had a crush on for a year is dating a guy who I never expected :(
I'm too lazy to study for an exam
I haven't bought any manga for a while cuz everything is shit
I wonder where is my dream? where is my reality?

on study week, but got a shit load of work to do -_-

I just realized what toLOVEru means, I know its very sad isnt it?

BTW I dont need the manga so give it to the best liar on here.

LIAR GAME! go watch it.

I had an erection for more than 5 hours straight

I'm almost broke, I can't find a job, and the money in my wallet keeps turning itself into manga somehow.

I edit videos with Windows Movie Maker.

Hahahhaa, man, I thought mine was funny, nice one Kageryu!

Oh and thetallness, I know how you feel (I'm not on it anymore, but I've been there before)

Day 2 in the life of Heero no Zetsubou:

I have no income but food staps and my xbox also has 3 light ring of death I sent it in 2 times and it still broken. I have no Driver License I stay at home most of the month. Im very Despised and I some time cut my self. the only reason for living is anime and manga.

[quote]I have no income but food staps and my xbox also has 3 light ring of death I sent it in 2 times and it still broken. I have no Driver License I stay at home most of the month. Im very Despised and I some time cut my self. the only reason for living is anime and manga.[/quote] Im mean depressed oh and I have a learning problem too.

I already own both books.

In Japanese.

I've been suffering from adult onset bipolar disorder for the past two years of my life essentially ruining everything I knew about my life and myself. Finally it all culminated in the end of my relationship with the girl I planned to marry due to the fact that she also suffers from a mental illness and our conflicts eventually resulted in a horrible end to what was a beautiful relationship. Now, skip ahead 6 months and said love of my life is addicted to uppers, and slowly losing sight of reality and the only person she trusts to help her is me. So I spend much more money than I can afford to drive the 30 miles a few times a week back and forth in my 1994 explorer with 237,000 miles on it to perform the soul crushing task of taking care of the woman I love but know I can't have.

To add to my day of despair, I've really been hoping to buy a set of bedsheets lately. There's two options, a green set and a pink set.

Green set: http://www.1999.co.jp/eng/10078897
Pink set: http://www.1999.co.jp/eng/10069968

Now naturally I would want to get the green set since it'd be much less weird for a guy to have green bed sheets than pink ones, but the problem is the pink ones have all the characters I like on them whereas the green ones don't.......

Oh and it's 3AM and I have a test at 8AM that I haven't studied for. No really, I'm serious.

I started out this day being backlogged on like 4 episodes. Now it's closer to 20....

How is that being assistant manager at my job, everything falls to my lap as being my fault when all I tried to do was follow orders and make everyone else happy? My best friend and his wife are on the verge of a divorce, my own fiance is one of the types of people that if it's happening to everyone else it has to be happening to her types... my son won't behave- being a typical two year old... gotta love him... and I am still waiting on the reply to whether or not I have been readmitted to the college of my choice - which in the long run of things will take me to Japan in two years time... did I miss any thing...? Yep, one other thing... over the next month there are ten games coming out and all of them to me are must haves... LOL...

oh and one last thing... There is not enough time in a day...

and NOW I find out there won't be any more One Piece anime for 3 weeks T_T

@Heero - I got a million of them. Oh, and pick the pink ones, it takes a man to use pink bedsheets, but it takes a GAR man to use ones that have Clannad on them.

So, right now I'm in quite the pickle. So, my knight in shining armor SEIBAA needs to get a mana transfer, but I'm not sure how to do it, my teacher/chain smoking/probably lesbian tsundere friend Tohsaka keeps telling me that I just need to move my hips but if I do that then I'll be sticking my pee stick into SEIBAA, it seems to be painful for her and the last time we did it she bled and peed on me, then I had to go to the bathroom really badly in the middle of it so I felt embarrassed and swore never to enter SEIBAA again. Oh, and there were weird 3DCG dragons and lava everywhere, one of them even ripped my arm off! (although it quickly came back one the CG vanished...how strange)

SEIBAA keeps telling me to stick my p0n0s in her vag00 and to J-J-JAM IT IN! but I'm still not quite sure what she means by that.

Here's another one.

Today I got caught in a predicament. I've been having feelings for my cat familiar recently, her soft, supple body, just ripe before reaching the wretched stage of the teens, the way she dresses in her not-quite goth loli dress...and her secret tsundere side are all driving me to the brink of insanity, so as I tried to have my way with her, my sister, sempai, and vampire friend all thought it to be in their best interests to intrude on me...my sister has a flat chest, so I could do with her, but both sempai and the vampire I could do without, they're too...developed...and one has a curry ass. But alas, I am too smart, and saw through their petty attempts to stop me using wit, cunning, and my mystic eyes of death perception aka dothax to quickly rid myself of these...eyesores...

But fate seemed to be against me ever still, as I was about to claim the prize that was my young adolescent denizen of my lust, she reverted back to her cat form, and thus rid my eyes of her loli body.


Oh well, a cat is fine too.

My heads hurts but only cos i was reading all the above posts, sum really funny stuff there. jk :P

I am going camping soon. I am afraid I'll wet my sleeping bag... and tent buddy.

Too funny (reaction in irc was just as funny too).
As for Day 2, dealing with the pot calling the kettle black...

Its a trap! This whole things a set up!

That's what I told myself today.

@Kageryu: I'm just glad I beat you to the Kara no Kyoukai jokes....lol.

Today I have to return "I Am America and So Can You" but I am only 88 pages in!

/wrists

I thought you guys said you were heartless D: Give it to Redzie, i think he needs the book and a hug ^__^" ..... and i just read how he doesnt need a manga so im going to go and cry. Give me manga, i live in a desert and my dog abuses me D: (haruhi please, kinokuniya here doesnt seem to import Yen Press stuff *hint hint*)

I'm depressed and it hurts trying to jerk off

It's Monday. That's enough.

The local eye doctor is trying to screw me out of money for glasses my insurance should have covered, my heating is totally borked, I'm broke as hell and this election is driving me up a wall. Not to mention my father refuses to believe I'm bisexual and they keep frakking taking Crayon Shin Chan off of TV! D:

@Heero - Curse you, don't worry though, I got plenty of future ones that only you and I will get.

@Kageryu: Oh yay! I look forward to them!

Tons of translation of Old English due today, and I've barely started. Also, I have a project due Thursday that I can't do because I have yet to meet with the kids I'm tutoring, and mah teacher's kind of a bitch.

My chemistry midterm is today, and I am completely lost. I failed this class last year. I'm a political science major, so why do I need to take chemistry? If only there was someone here who knew how to help me...

@Desu Noto: At least you don't have hair growing on your palms, like me.

It's hard to create original content in field where everyone is passionate about what they're writing about. Every blog post you write, every review you do, it feels like someone did it before you. The worst thing is that you're trying to leave a mark on people, get your opinions out there, and you have to be able to do it in a way that gives those people what they want, and not reinvent the wheel. Blogging about manga is possibly one of the harder things I've done in my life.

I'm a Canadian who has no job/money and just getting by towards my degree/bachelors. I need something to fill my void. That and I just had three mid-terms the other day and I need some time to relax before my brain overloads.

i was sick to day, and to get a giant shot in my but, and boy did it hurt. And i can't really move thanks to it, and it hurts to poop

I work for a financial institution, i.e. the company is getting taken over and/or going broke!!!

ps: I'm not one of those rich bankers who has screwed everybod else!!

Uh...todays troubles begin with my car needs costly repairs to run again.

Kagamin! I just watched Asuma sensei die!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I've been out of a job for about two months now...not that I lost my job, just too many illegal immigrants keep taking my work cuz they'll work for dirt cheap. I would've been looking for another job within that time but no one would hire me since I wouldn't be there for long (to make a long story short).

got a project today due next week and did two tests

I just don't have the time everyday to watch/read the anime and manga that I want. Too much stuff with school and work :(

I've got a manga to finish and print before the end of next month and I'm a few pages behind...

@Heero Yuy: That happened to me last week. Sent mine in on Wednesday. But today my only problem is deciding what to watch. School Rumble Semester 2 Part 1 or Kodomo no Jikan. Hmm... I think I should watch both.

My laptop started acting really funny, with the screen just turning black. I drive an hour to drop it off for repairs. They keep it, say it's repaired. I go back, to bring it home, they decide to close early.

I go back again the next day, bring it home. It dies again. I take it back again. They say to wait for 30 mins. 2 hours later they take me back into the back room to show me the laptop. It's disassembled and the mother board is in a TOASTER OVEN. I wish I was kidding. Apparently that helps reattach...something.

I go back home, call them today and they proclaim it properly dead. I have to go pick up the corpse tomorrow.

I now have to do all of my portfolio work on a 5 year old pc and if I don't complete it this semester, I don't graduate.

Not good times.

@electric goldfish: Actually, since I'm currently working IT support at a hospital near campus, I can reaffirm the toaster oven method. Assuming you do it right the point of it is to heat up the solder on the motherboard so as to help make sure all the chips and pins are on well. You use a toaster oven instead of a microwave since the radiation in a microwave would effectively kill any of the integrated chipset parts, but a toaster oven shouldn't harm it assuming you keep it below a certain temperature.

The same kind of logic is applied when using the "towel method" on red-ringed Xbox 360s. In that case though the heat the CPU and GPU give off heat the whole case, with the towel preventing cool air from getting in. The problem with this method over using a toaster oven however is the potential to permanently damage the CPU and GPU since they aren't being cooled properly and thus build up to a much higher temperature than is safe for them.

I bitt my lip reading these ... Now it really stings. Oh and i'm broke.

Problem number one:
AP classes are killing my brain. Not only do I barely have any free time to do my normal internet tribulations, I have a huge lack of sleep. I feel like an insomniac.

I've been getting roughly three hours of sleep everyday because of my classes. I feel like crap during the whole school day.

Problem number two shall be posted tomorrow.

Dear Kagamin,

Recently, I've been working for my neighbour. This is convenient, since I get a free ride to work. However, all is not well as my neighbour happens to smell like a horse. I don't mean that he smells bad to the same degree a horse does - I mean he actually literally smells like a horse. At first I just ignored it, but the constant horsestench is driving me insane. The drive to and from work is absolutely unbearable to the point I'm probably going to start taking the bus. What's worse is that he doesn't just smell in enclosed spaces... If we're outside and the wind shifts I risk losing my lunch. I can't handle it anymore. I think I'm going to snap...

im worried about getting mugged again by a guy who tried to mug me last week.

I made my parents mad yesterday and might not be able to go see Polysics on saturday >:

I think I got my very first D. It's a philosophy class, and that and me don't have much to say to each other. Also I hate Haruhiists ever more by the day.

I'm waiting for EPI 4 of Gundam 00, why isn't it Sunday yet?

I'm tired. Really tired. I usually have to have 12 hours of sleep... at the very least. Lately, I've only had about 5 or 6. Sure, I can run on 8 or 10 like you "normal" people, but the days feels so long like that...

Before I begin, go grab a box of tissues. Okay, ready? List time!

* I'm a teenage girl in high school
* I'm in several very difficult AP classes
* My mother uses me for free labor
* I live with just me and my emotionally unstable mother who still spanks me (I'm 17)
* I've been cleaning the entire house (my room, kitchen, both bathrooms, her room, her laundry, my laundry, her boyfriends laundry
more to follow

Okay, here's another sad bit:

I've been dating the same guy for 1 year and 3 months and he wont kiss me. He'll barely even make contact with me. He also shows little to no emotion. I don't even think he likes me...
It's just frustrating.

@Alice: I would recommend you watch Gurren Lagann, you will feel better about life in general, also I would give your so called "BF" a choice to ether smarten his ass the F*!? up and or find a new one cuz that's barely being "friendly" at best, there are PLENTY of ppl in the world, don't waste your time on a sorry excuse for a boy, and as far as your mom and her crap goes "ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWER".

@lalala1234: Polysics? Saturday? Austin? *does hope you can go* also *high five*

More depressing-ness:
Recently me and my friends have been doing lots of dangerous jobs against our wills. We've all nearly died on occasion and I could've sworn me and my buddy had actually died one time... But none of that really matters anymore. All my friends just died, leaving me all alone. Then I had to do another dangerous job that I didn't want to all by myself and completely fucked it up... I'm terrified right now and don't want to do any more of these jobs. I'm gonna go to school now and think about things maybe things'll turn out for the better...

Also Golgo 13 is officially no longer being subbed T_T

Well, i have to live with my grandparents because my parents died so i don't get very many things. My grandparents have a hard time raising me and i need money or at least something to sell. I had i little sister but she died at birth. I have a little brother too so that just makes it harder for my grandparents. I am trying to make the best of it though.Thanks for listening Kagamin. n_n

Kagamin *lays head on lap and cries*
My boyfriend didn't call and today was our anniversary.

to add to my misery, yesterday i went to the hospital, and just found out what is going to kill me someday.
FUCK MY LIFE.

I have insomnia real bad right now.

I have insomnia as well, recently quit my job which I was only going to because I liked this girl I worked with. Quit and went to do the whole college thing full time, spend a lot of time miserable now, last time I saw her she asked me how I was doing. Couldn't even look her in the face and just said "I'm doing ok." Truely pathetic. Anyways without a job and paying for school I can't afford the Suzumiya manga.

But surely manga can fill the void,

right?

And now I wish I could retract my statement because its kind of really pathetic.

Mua ha ha, Day Numero Tres arrives!
Admitting I got pretty down when looking at the sorry state of my virtual robot last night, but this morning with a man's fighting spirit I rushed out of bed to do Piratey things (^_^).

Dear Kagamin,

I was going to sleep in this morning, but after going to the bathroom I stepped on a can of Buzz Cola. After cleaning up after myself, I was unable to go back to sleep...

Also, Alice, cut your boyfriend some slack. How was HE supposed to know it was your anniversary?

My hard drive crashed deleting all of my manga in non-paper form.... this was literally thousands of pages.

tooo many f*king assignments

I have got to learn to stop lending money to people with jobs while I don't have one myself.

I missed my observations today, and now probably don't have enough time to fulfill my observation requirements

zombies are surrounding the compound, we can keep them at bay for a few hours, drop their front lines. We've rigged the perimeter to ignite, but it will only kill a few, scare away the rest. If just part of that wall fails to ignite, the opening will leave us vulnerable. I'm just a little stressed. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.

Today I found out that I lost even to Curry Ass-sempai in the popularity polls, they say it’s because no one heard my story, and that I apparently died, but I swear I’m still alive! My Egyptian friend and I finally put the finishing touches on our home in the park; cardboard tubes are harder to find in this city than one would think! Once again, I was ignored by the one I love, but I’m not surprised by it anymore, as they still come to rescue me whenever I’m in a pinch…except when that pesky alternate persona of theirs kicks in, then they just try to practice dotstabbin on me! But don’t worry, I’m gonna try my best, and soon everyone will know my story! …Uuu, so I say, but my luck never goes the way I want it to…isn’t it sad, me? ;_;

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It's not easy being me. I mean, at one second, I'm just living the life of a tech nerd, and the next, I'm thrown into piloting a prototype mobile suit and being told I have not-quite psychic powers, they say it's a New Type of power. Anyway, soon I find myself on board a military vessel, under the command of someone who does things even my father had never done before (like hit me) and being told to go and hunt down people wearing masks and having a fetish for the color red.

Oh, and the girl I like just died, but she's not really dead, as I can still communicate with her spirit telepathically through space. (Yeah, explain that one.)

I had the "gastro" (don't know how to tranlaste it) last Friday night so i puked/had diarrhea all night long. My first solid meal was on Monday and even then it was a small portion. Today i ate a half portion, i still feel pretty shitty...

uh, i band practice all this week, and finals for this semester

For some reason, the building managers aren't getting the forms for the rooms I reserved from Campus Organizations, despite being filled out correctly. Don't make me lose my rooms.

Got a bad grade on a math quiz today (looked at the wrong schedule, thought I had enough time to finish)
The only way for me to get on the internet right now is to override my school laptop (which I think may be slightly illegal).
Four years worth of writing just crashed with my PC.
Oh, and I just realized that my closest friends are people that I've met one or fewer times in person.

Today I discovered that I was supposed to have the first draft for my biology paper completed and ready to hand to a classmate. I've barely started to look for sources, and I haven't even read those I've found. My topic is cyprinid herpesvirus 3, for those who care.

:( Now I feel poor because I go to college and only work part time...don't earn enough for anime...so am now going hungry but I have my Anime!

Last time I complained about not getting enough sleep... I feel much better now. I slept pretty much the entire past two days. No internet, that's why, lol.

But in serious news, I think I'm going to get quite a bit of hostility the next time I walk into work. This crap always happens when I go back out to the world to see what I've missed. (It ain't much, I'm tellin' ya...)

Problem number two:

College applications suck. They suck ass. I HATE THEM WITH A PASSION! I hate the essays you have to write for them and I hate everything about them.

I'm so stressed because of these applications. I have to seem awesome without sounding arrogant. UGH!

One more month until they're due! AHH!

I just had to sit through four hours with my grandparents listening to how Obama will destroy America. That we can expect another major terrorist attack within 5 months if Obama is elected as well as immediate riots on November 5th whether or not he wins; one being in anger and the other celebration, because apparently people don't know how to be angry without flipping and torching cars. They also believe Presidential term limits should be removed so McCain can remain in office for as long as he lives allowing him to fix all of the problems of the previous democratic presidents and insuring Bush's policies are properly followed through.

It was especially hard listening to this as we were being served dinner by two african-american waiters who had to smile, grit their teeth, and do everything in their power from pouring a drink over someone's head for what they were saying. They're also forced to act exactly like the driver from Driving Miss Daisy or a maid in a Civil War era plantation home except without the "yessum, massuh" as this was at an ultra conservative Baptist retirement community. They just happen to all be old enough and from families that all had servants or family maids that were then black, today african-american, so have continued the tradition of staffing their community with what they're used to.

All of these damn college applications
Have been eating my life away slowly.
I must persist, with a lot of patience,
Like what Jesus would; he was very holy.

I'm stuck in the bottom of an hourglass.
The longer I slack and longer I wait,
More sand goes on my head and in my ass,
Suffocating me and sealing my fate.

I know this is lame, but as you can see,
To be unique, I've had my complaints rhyme.
It's worthy a manga, don't you agree?
Not doing so would really be a crime.

I have an AP calculus test tomorrow.

Did someone turn on the suck?

Well, the English paper I thought was due on Thursday was due today. That sucks balls. Wouldn't have had the time to do it anyway.

I'm still nowhere close to finishing The Answer.

@Wasen: I'll probably be at that celebration, be it with guns or with beer, lol.
(I don't agree with longer term limits though. Instead I think we need term limits on our dumbass Senators and Congressmen....some of them have been in WAAAY too long, and they have a lot more influence on what actually gets done than the president)

My day yesterday sucked, I ordered the pink bedsheets and the value of the dollar of the yen dropped 2 yen for the day, and then shot back up 3 yen today... also I missed Japanese class so I was unable to turn in my homework, and all because my idiot suitemates all made me play football with them at 3:30AM IN THE MORNING!!! (

ack, it cut off...

all I was saying was that that actually happened...

@Heero - Shoot them.

Here's my new one, one hour before it's actually the next day for me.

...Hold on, I have to think of an anime/game to parody.

...Hm...

Ah! I know.

.................................*cough*

(It's a Len joke lawl)

I die a little on the inside every day.

Hey Kagamin,
One of my best buds was found to have a brain tumor the size of a tennis ball right behind his left eye today. The doctor feels confident, but there is still a risk that he could go blind, or have some brain damage in the operation Friday. It's just stressing me out a little. Thanks for listening/reading.

(Seeing how I really admire the anime counterparts to the manga being offered and have yet to actually read either I'm going to post again just for good luck)

First off I tried recovering my anime/manga collection on my hard drive (this was around 280 gigs) to no avail. I figured I had a remote chance by using a bootable/live version of Linux, but it wouldn't read at all. I was hoping to get a backup hard drive this Christmas from my loving family or girlfriend... kinda too late for that obviously.

I die a little on the inside every day as well

marching band gets worse, i have tons of homework, and no job, which means i have no money, please i need some manga

I went to a marching band competition last night and it made me really miss back when I used to march. And my computer is still being made of fail...

Haruhi could make it better though.

I kissed my cat and it bit my lip. Im bleeding >:

Problem three:

I failed my driving test the first time I took it.
And when taking public transit, there's dumb twats on them who constantly are being baboons. I hate public transportation.

I just found out that my family is going on a cruise this Thanksgiving, but I'm not because I'm away at college. I don't really want to go on a cruise, because that money could be used on a trip to Japan... but its still annoying to be left alone during the holidays, and really annoying to hear it from my aunt, and not from my family.

dear kAgamnin,

i'ma so drunk ritth now. tHere's a fly buszzing around but evrey tiem i go to hit it I just end up stupmblign aoround. sure, its not liek i have space AIDS or anyothign but god damn that sound is annoyiong.

Sometimes I wonder what it is that allows me to be around people. Upon reflection I feel as if the negative traits of my presence outweigh whatever people seem to like in me.

Apparently I mistakenly sent an e-mail to a crazed McCain supporter [my neighbor is McCain all the way, and he forwarded me an e-mail from this guy, who I replied back along with my neighbor]. His insistence on using the words fuck and balls made me laugh, and then I realized how sad some people are. I was threatened with legal action[don't ask me] for i don even know what. It was fun tho, tons.

"I did it so little under educated people such as yourself, who by the way, most likely first got laid around 19 or 20 and most likely nerdy with not much to call physical abilities , can rely on real Americans to do the patriotic thing!"

Keep in mind I've never met this guy and he never met me. But oh well, REAL Americans don't support Obama. We're all commies, and in that case, Se Sovětským svazem na věčné časy!

And now its thursday, so comment #2 incoming.

School sucks, Psych 101 is a shitty class. To pass, you have to do 3 hours of psychological experiments conducted by random psych professors. That sounds like fun. I'm also loving the grading in that class, 1/3 midterm 2/3 final and thats it. ha..

Lately I've been torn, there are two ways to approach the issue I've had trouble with, from the head, or from the tail, and I just can't seem to decide which way I want to go about attacking it. If I attack from the head, then I'll need to present a full offense to take the grinding and tearing that'll insue, but if I attack from the tail, I can take it apart bit by bit, with the risk that it'll spill out all over the innocents from the head that I'd have to ignore.

This all brings about the real question though...which side of the choco-coronet is the front anyway?

brother recently came back.... taking over everything now -_-

This day I am just not feeling good because of my classes making life difficult.

We just started learning Kanji in Japanese class and my brain stopped.

Also Far Cry 2 came out which preempts life, making things like the multiple tests next week all that much harder to study for.

my cat yelled at me >:

Problem four:

My personal essay is due tomorrow in English (for college applications and all that jazz) and I barely started. It's very difficult to talk about yourself without sounding cliche and generic.

URGH I hate talking about myself in a subtle way. Bloody difficult.

I'm going to Mexico for two years to teach people related to those who I mentioned are taking my work.

Yesterday I was chased by a bunch of radical evangelical Christians with pitchforks who wanted to burn me because they thought I was a pagan.

Well, apparently school is making me learn Matlab, this ridiculous programmig language thats basically a retarted java with more numbers and those square brackets..

I gotta read something to stay alive during lecture..

my $200 mp3 player broke

So, I died today. Well, ok, I'm not really dead, some loli with constantly changing hair colors told me I'm more or less a replacement for the absence created by my dying earlier...the question of course now is when did I die earlier? Well, whatever, point is, I'm dead, and according to the hazy, flame-wielding loli, also known as a Flame Haze, I'll be disappearing soon, but none of you will remember me, so you'll ignore this post. Allow me to take this moment to say words of insult to the following people.

*you read this part but don't remember it as my memory is erased from your head.*

...What? I'm not disappearing? ...Oh shit, I shouldn't have committed all those crimes...

@Khaldrogo: hehehe...been there, done that. Engineering I take it?

I have a computer science class test coming up and I have a stack of unfinished/unplayed discs including names like Shuffle, Dead Space, Ever 17, Shakugan no Shana, Armored Core:For Answer, Guilty Gear 2: Overture, Hourglass of Summer, Gears of War for PC, and Clannad (the game - I've got 2 routes left)...it's a pretty eclectic stack...

Midterm...do I have to say anything else.

I was away all week, so Im troubled that I couldnt comment on my troubles.

Lord known’s a lot of people have demons to face and its better saying them out loud so here’s mine... sorry if this is long. My Birthday was on the 17 and I hate it sometimes. Why you ask, well Ten years ago my father died four days before my birthday day and the day I went to visit him after being anger with him for god knows what reason he has a heart attack the minute my mother drops me off. Day of the party my cat gets ran over by my grandmother and not one friend shows up to my Birthday. Nine year only one year I had friends come over but on my 19 Birthday my mother gets cancer (on my birthday she’s barley out of surgery) so I have to cancel it. Year later my Birthday got worse. I pay my cousin to drive and pick of some friends (Am 20 now) and the minute we pick them all up, driving at the speed limit on the freeway (Flat tire out of know where) We take it out, put on the spare and it has no air so it’s deflated. Two hour walk and the gas station air pump are out of order! Go to next one and spare tire is heavy as heck! Get back to the car ask my friends parent to take them back home, drive back on freeway (45 on 70 speed limit) and sure enough it barley makes it back home when it fell off bolts and all. Now after an hour later the 25 hours of cooking I’ve prepared meals galore and at the last minute all 30 friends cancel on me so now I have all this food and no one to eat it. No one said happy birthday but my mother very freaking late at night my grandmother remembers, am broke, single, my dead beat uncle lives in my car god knows where, am jobless, can’t even afford school, and well things just keep looking down hill so all I got that makes me happy anymore is manga which is about the only thing keeping me sane right now.

past year it has been going down hill.my mom is using my ssn to order a bunch of stuff and i have to go to court for them she is also a drug addict to pain pills.she is dying so i cant say much to her.i also lost all my friends cause they are staring thier own lives which is understandable but still.i lost my job cause i was woring paving for my girls dad but since we broke up he "dosent have alot to work to do so he dosent need me."idk its just been a bad year just have to keep going and try to make it better.

I'm really going through a rough time. We're having trouble at home as far as paying off bills go. One of my friends died in a car wreck about a week ago. It's so strange looking at his chair in class and knowing it's always going to be empty. My grandmother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease and she can barely remember me. Most of my family lives in another state and I never get to see them. I'm so depressed. I'm currently on a ton of medication for various reasons that I really don't want to go into. My grandfather is a baby step away from leukemia. My grandmother is dying. My father is slipping. We think he has early onset Alzheimer's. My boyfriend's brother is spazzing and I hate seeing him sad. We've been together for over 3 years and I still think about the hurt that he caused me. I don't want to say what he did, but I'm pretty sure if you read this, you can take a guess and be right. I was put in a "behavioral clinic" for a week because of feeling suicidal and assaulting someone. While inside, I was diagnosed with manic depression. I've had 3 therapists and am currently on my fourth. I'm struggling religiously and emotionally... physically to, actually. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep. It feels really good to pour your heart out...